I am and have always been against any types of bullying. I have been a victim of bullying for as long as I was a kid. Don't know why...Middle school was one of my worst time in my life as I kept getting bullied left and right. High school wasn't any better. College was probably the best time since I didn't seem to get bullied as much (except when my boyfriend's crazy ex-girlfriend kept harassing me).
Throughout those dark times, I felt helpless. I went with the advice and told someone about me getting bullied. I felt helpless in school because the administrators and teachers didn't do enough to stop the bullying. It got to the point, I stop trying to get help. I took matters into my own hands; I ended up getting in trouble and beaten up.
Why am I getting bullied? I've been asking myself this question every single day. I came up with many theories on why am I always the target to bullying.
- I am a threat. Believe it or not, people see me more of a threat than a person. I don't understand why people think I am a threat to them.
- I make people look bad. I didn't intend to make people look bad. At work, I am usually the person who goes above and beyond to get the work done. I can't help it that people notices my hardworking habit. I work hard while others are lazy and take the easy way out. I admit, I am a bit of an overachiever.
- I am unable to fight back. I get it, I am weak. I know I am.
- I am not like them. I am not like them because I am my own individual with a different mindset.
Today, I am a grown-ass adult who is still getting bullied and still feel helpless. If I was to go to the higher ups and tell them the problem; all they're going to tell me is that I am an adult, work it out. And if you will ask those people, they'll just lie to your face.
Recently, I tried to apply for a promotion at work. With the amount of work I do, you would guess that I would have gotten the promotion. But I didn't (sad face). I am not happy at the fact that I was overlooked and never given a chance to prove myself.
